watched: the merchants of joy (2025)

🎬 The Merchants of Joy: Directed by Celia Aniskovich. Follows five NYC families as they source, bargain and hustle to sell Christmas trees, blending street smarts and holiday spirit. 🔗

Watched on Amazon Prime; could’ve been really cheesy but it did a good job of showing the realities of running a seasonal small business in a cutthroat city alongside the gooey sentimental Christmas stuff. Still, it didn’t dip too far into sensationalism or anything– just a straight-on viewpoint of what it’s like being a Christmas tree seller in NYC.

Recommended if you’re interested in the topic (or just like NYC documentaries).

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reading log: cheap lands colorado by ted conover

Book Info

Cheap Land Colorado: Off-Gridders at America’s Edge by Ted Conover (2024)

Genre: Nonfiction, Memoir, History

LibraryThing: https://www.librarything.com/work/28281260/book/300006632

Acquired from: Little Free Library, Denver, Colorado, USA

Started reading: November 13, 2025

Finished reading: December 2, 2025 (DNF)

Reading Notes

Page 20: It’s hard not to be a little judgmental of people who buy land and put a house up and then have no money to sustain themselves afterwards but this author is supremely kind and writes in an un-sensationalistic manner which I appreciate.

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reading log: confessions of a concierge by bonnie g. smith

Book Info

Confessions of a Concierge: Madame Lucie’s History of Twentieth-Century France
by Bonnie G. Smith (1985)

Genre: Nonfiction, Memoir, History

LibraryThing: https://www.librarything.com/work/1238610/

Acquired from: Capitol Hill Books, Denver, Colorado, USA ($6.50) [see also: Indie Bookstore Visit Log]

Started reading: November 6, 2025

Finished reading: November 13, 2025

Review

An interesting memoir/biography of a woman who grew up in early 20th century France and lived through to the 1980s. Focuses almost entirely on the subject (the concierge) and not so much on the people who live in her building, and in fact the “memoir” part ends when she gets the job and then the “biography” part starts when she’s been working there for 40 years. The gap was noticeable but I assume it happened because the author couldn’t get her to talk about that time period as much as she did the before-concierge job part.

Reading Notes

Copyright page says the following:

The paper in this book meets the guidelines for permanence and durability of the Committee on Production Guidelines for Book Longevity of the Council on Library Resources.

I’ve never seen that before, but sure enough the pages aren’t yellowed and are sturdier than many other paperbacks, more like a nice hardcover paper.

Page xvi: Quite a long-winded intro on why this story deserves to be told by a historian and why it’s important to historians or whatever which I think must be a sign of the time it was written (1985,) because nowadays it’s just taken for granted that first-person historical info is important and wanted?? Published by Yale so maybe something there too– like author had to argue why it’s academic, maybe?

Page 3: First part of book is written in first-person POV from POV of Madame Lucie, and covers her childhood and adult years up to becoming a concierge. Second part is third person from POV of historian and covers her life that overlaps with the historian.

Page 12: Can’t find a “Queen Navolo” but there was a Queen Ranavalona III around that time period: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ranavalona_III

Page 14: Separation of church and state apparently means you can have religious schools but the teachers can’t wear religious garb? I’m gonna have to Wikipedia this later for more info.

Page 19: “little bugs” in their hair from lack of regular washing, but it wasn’t lice. French term punaises — which a quick search pulls up either stink bugs or bed bugs, neither of which I think someone would tolerate in their hair for months.

Page 38: First boyfriend died in the war, second one was already married. My god, it’s like a novel!

Page 51: Both her parents were buried in Pere Lachaise cemetery. I’ve been there!

Page 60: Secret stash of 700 francs in 1925 = worth about $645 USD in today’s money

Page 63: Ford factory workers (and their families) were evacuated from Paris during WW2 and sent to Bordeaux! I didn’t know that.

Page 76: Kitten murder! Gah 😖

Page 88: About a Californian painter living in Mme Lucile’s building:

Harton always returned to Paris, glad to be back to the French style and a place where he, like most expatriates, could feel his freedom by not belonging to the society.

Page 129: Noticing quite a few typos/missing ending punctuation in this part of the book.

Page 151: Interesting theory that as Mme Lucie aged her memory started to go and as it went her focus became her physical body because that’s all she could see/interact with. On the other hand ending the book with the main “character” sitting with her underwear around her ankles because she couldn’t bend to pull them back up is a major bummer.


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reading log: enemy feminisms by sophie lewis

Book Info

Enemy Feminisms: TERFs, Policewomen, and Girlbosses Against Liberation by Sophie Lewis (2025)

Genre: Nonfiction

LibraryThing: https://www.librarything.com/work/32671363/

Acquired from: Library (ebook)

Started reading: October 8, 2025

Finished reading: TBD

Reading Notes

0%: Started reading this to give my brain a little workout and so far it’s working! This is also the first ebook I’m doing a reading log for, and I haven’t decided how to mark down the annotation locations. Based on how my KOreader Sync plugin downloads things (eg without percentages), looks like it’s gonna be grouped under chapter titles.

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weeknotes (sept. 28-oct. 4, 2025)

Life Updates

Another week gone by, and now it’s a new month! The end of the year is racing towards me and it’s very annoying(/stressful) to think about, so I’m trying not to.

Another overall mellow week where I mostly stayed home and read/wrote, but I did go to a clothing sale this weekend and got two pairs of shoes for $8: one pair suede booties, one pair corduroy sneakers.

I’m not entirely sure they actually go with my current wardrobe, which is very summer-focused. These shoes are definitely more fall/winter.

I think I can make it work if I get one new pair of dark-colored medium-weight pants (or skirt), so I’m going to keep my eyes open at the thrift stores. On the plus side, if they don’t work out, I spent so little on them I won’t feel bad for donating them if I have to.

🐈‍⬛ I still haven’t done the cat info post for this sit (apologies) BUT rest assured these cats are adorable and friendly and want to me near me without being annoying about it. Their food must have some kind of anti-hairball thing in it because I haven’t found one yet, despite one cat being long-haired.

Media Consumption

📺 Got a Peacock promo subscription for a month (for free) and while I haven’t started watching these YET, I do have them on my watchlist and am looking forward to watching them at some point:

  • Poker Face (TV)
  • The Paper (TV)
  • The Phoenician Scheme (movie)
  • Drive Away Dolls (movie)
  • Honey, Don’t (movie)

📖 Still deep into the Star Wars fanfics and ignoring everything else. ;D

Beloved recent fanfics: Why Not’s and How To’s by Trixree; And Back We Go by miyaji_08; The Force of My Love by Quarra; Second ‘Verse by LauraBWrites; Your Smile In Stone by ecarian

🎮 Started playing Legend of Zelda: Link Between Worlds on my 3DS, which I’ve played at least once before AND completed! It’s one of the easier Zelda games, I think, but the mechanic is really fun (you flatten out onto walls and go through cracks into another reality) so I’m enjoying it. It IS a little strange to go back to the simpler style Zelda games compared to, like, Breath of the Wild, but it’s still got a good story/gameplay.

Food & Dining

Tried a new-to-me brand of soy milk and it’s horrible, curdles weirdly in my coffee and has a sweetness to it that makes my mashed potatoes taste weird. Bleh.

Web Updates

Gave up on completing the change-over in a timely fashion and put the Docuwiki version of my site back up for now. I think the bots are still attacking, but I have it set up on Cloudflare and I blocked Brazil (where most of the bots were coming from apparently) so that should help.

Looking Forward

I’m currently working on a) setting up various emails tied to various personal domains and b) swapping over everything I want swapped from my Gmail to those new emails.

Some things are harder to change emails for than others AND one of my domains refuses to update its DNS records for some reason, so it’s annoying on both ends. However, I’m hoping to mostly have everything forwarding into my Fastmail account by the end of the week. And perhaps I can even close some of my lesser-used Gmail accounts!

watched: black barbie (2023)

🎬 Black Barbie: A Documentary: Directed by Lagueria Davis. With Lagueria Davis, Beulah Mae Mitchell, Maxine Waters, Shonda Rhimes. Tracing the origin of the first Black Barbie doll to the filmmaker’s aunt, who asked why Barbie couldn’t look like her, this documentary explores her quest for representation and diversity. 🔗

I really enjoyed this! It’s a combo of Barbie history and social history, with a focus on Black American history and culture (obviously).

Has interesting interviews with people directly involved in the creation of the original “Black Barbie,” people working on the then-current Barbie line, and kids who do or do not play with Barbies. I also liked that they talked about other Black dolls available before/after Barbie came out.

It’s a very personal documentary, too, as the director’s aunt was one of the creators. And there’s personal thoughts/statements about Barbie from the director threaded throughout the doc, which I also liked.

Recommended!

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📺 watched: who done it: the clue documentary (2022)

🎬 Who Done It: The Clue Documentary: Directed by Jeff C. Smith. With Colleen Camp, Tim Curry, Syd Dutton, Jane Jenkins. Clue (1985) has become a cult classic film and is loved by multiple generations. Yet there has never been a documentary created to tell the behind the scenes stories…until now. 🔗

A cute fan documentary about the making of Clue (1985), with interviews from some cast and crew members, including the writer/director, and otherwise clips from conventions, TV interviews, and so on.

Audio levels are a bit off on the older recorded bits (the director started in 2017) but overall still watchable. Very interesting learning about the history of the movie’s development, and how they got the cast together.

I thought it was funny that Clue is so popular on social media (especially Tumblr) but the director of the documentary didn’t know any other fans IRL and even the cast/crew didn’t know people loved it. Hopefully they do now, of course!

📺 watched: some like it hot (1959)

🎬 Some Like It Hot: Directed by Billy Wilder. With Marilyn Monroe, Tony Curtis, Jack Lemmon, George Raft. After two male musicians witness a mob hit, they flee the state in an all-female band disguised as women, but further complications set in. 🔗

Queer af! And I did enjoy it, especially Marilyn who was a hoot, but if I think about it too much I start getting the heebies.

I HATE when womanizer characters trick their love interest into liking them and the love interest doesn’t get angry at him when the trick is revealed, because they’re in love. Ugh.

Anyway, now I want to see if I can find recordings of all-girl jazz bands to listen to…


📺 2025 Watched List

📖 reading log: the forest unseen by david george haskell

Book Info

Cover of The Forest Unseen

Genre: Nonfiction, Natural History, Ecology

LibraryThing: https://www.librarything.com/work/11720259/t/The-Forest-Unseen-A-Years-Watch-in-Nature

Acquired from: Little Free Library, Ann Arbor, Michigan, USA [see log]

Started reading: August 17, 2025

Finished reading: September 2 (DNF)

May come back to this later (in ebook version) but it’s not holding my attention and I don’t want to carry it around waiting for it.

Reading Updates

Title Page: This copy is signed by the author!

Page xii:

Indeed, the truth of the forest may be more clearly and vividly revealed by the contemplation of a small area than it could be by donning ten-league boots, covering a continent but uncovering little.

Page 8: Somebody did a lot of underlining in pencil but stopped after the second chapter. Guessing they DNF’d this, but I’m enjoying it so far. It reminds me of Seasons of the Wild but more satisfyingly science-y.

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📖 reading log: i married a logger by julie anderson

Book Info

Genre: Nonfiction, Memoir

LibraryThing: https://www.librarything.com/work/1911762/t/I-Married-a-Logger-Life-in-Michigans-Tall-Timber

Acquired from: Digger’s, Ann Arbor, Michigan, USA

Started reading: August 14, 2025

Finished reading: August 17, 2025

Review (written Aug 17)

Overall a good read– author has a good amount of humor and can write funny scenes well. It’s interesting to read about how the logging industry worked before it became industrialized in the late 1940s. The author has some typical 1950s attitudes about thinness and unions which are questionable in modern times, but overall not too bad. It’s an upbeat memoir about a particular time in Michigan that I enjoyed reading.

(Crossposted to LibraryThing)

I’m not going to keep this particular copy because the glue binding is totally falling apart, but if and when I happen to build a library for myself in the future I would enjoy having a copy of this on the shelf.

Reading Updates (Aug 14-17)

Page 0: I picked this book up because a) it’s a memoir set in Michigan (where I’m currently catsitting) and b) the author did her own illustrations and they’re pretty good! Published originally in 1951 and this is a reprint by a local Michigan publisher in the 80s.

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